Lately, as I watch Rascal grow up, I have been thinking. Dangerous I know. But I do it anyway! I’m a rebel like that. Anyway, moving on. I’ve been thinking about how she is the most important thing in life, the reason I do things I would never have previously considered doing.
For example, I don’t mind getting up early every morning and waking up if she is upset in the night. I don’t mind wiping a pooey bottom and getting splashed on in the bath. I don’t mind getting a food-sneeze when she’s eating and wiping her runny nose. I might not particularly enjoy some of those things but I wouldn't have it any other way. One thing for sure, I would usually have not done any of these things for another person.
For example, I don’t mind getting up early every morning and waking up if she is upset in the night. I don’t mind wiping a pooey bottom and getting splashed on in the bath. I don’t mind getting a food-sneeze when she’s eating and wiping her runny nose. I might not particularly enjoy some of those things but I wouldn't have it any other way. One thing for sure, I would usually have not done any of these things for another person.
"The concept of her not existing seems so foreign to me now."
I was also thinking about how there was a moment in time when she didn’t exist. And then she did. The concept of her not existing seems so foreign to me now. I don’t remember what life was like before she came along and I don’t remember what the point of life was. I got up every day and lived solely for myself, husband and job. As important as some of these things are, they pale in comparison to what I do now. Not that my husband isn't important, he is! But you know what I mean! It's a different type of importance. Responsibility for a whole person from the start of their life.
I also think that, if the circumstances had have been different, she may not have been her! I mean it would have been our child and we wouldn’t have known any different, but it wouldn’t have been the exact child we have now if timing had have been different! That blows my small mind slightly. Maybe thinking really is too dangerous for me.
As I watch her become a little person with individual thoughts and desires, I am amazed at the creation I have been given the privilege of participating in. I can’t wait to see the person she becomes as she grows up as a 2 year old, 5 year old, 10 year old, 15 year old. It will be an amazing rollercoaster ride. And I can’t wait!
Libby :)
I also think that, if the circumstances had have been different, she may not have been her! I mean it would have been our child and we wouldn’t have known any different, but it wouldn’t have been the exact child we have now if timing had have been different! That blows my small mind slightly. Maybe thinking really is too dangerous for me.
As I watch her become a little person with individual thoughts and desires, I am amazed at the creation I have been given the privilege of participating in. I can’t wait to see the person she becomes as she grows up as a 2 year old, 5 year old, 10 year old, 15 year old. It will be an amazing rollercoaster ride. And I can’t wait!
Libby :)
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